LITTLE F******* MANIPULATORS.

Well it has been quite a rough patch, a new year and it sucks already, i mean its what mid jan and am near pulling the hair out of my head, and who ever said some B*LLS*** about keeping a positive attitude was spewing crap and i SHIT you not, i have tried that for 3 months now and all it does is frustrate you more, smile think that it could have been worse, Hell who i am kidding when i tell myself this? (seriously hun i dont know how you do this but that person you wish me to be can never be) dissappionting but did you expect any less.

And this blog this is never what i wanted for it, and now its out of my control and the control freak in me wants it shut down but some how i like it's something that comes out of me that i refuse to control. See me i have never been the type to talk or write about what bothers me or what am thinking out or what it i would like to do, but lately offlaoding has been neccessary i mean i had not lost my temper in 3 years(my temper is the demon i inheritted from my dad) and last year and just this year twice, tae kwondo practice does not help any more and me thought maybe my sis' idea of writting it out would be good, lets just say i should have known better A. coz its of no use and this is the first time that ia actually doing and some how am getting more pissed as i contuniue to write.

Kwanza some people have shidaz always jumping to tell you "ati you have issues" "why are you like this" kwani how am i supposed to be, am so tired of taking blame for jack stuff that 3/4 of the time i have no idea what the hell it is. I know i can be too effing crude and some times i know i deserve half the shit that comes down my way but sometimes you meet some charaters that just drain you and i mean REALLY drain you and no amount of reason or logic is usefull in dealling with them and when you stoop down to their level, shock of all shock's the names you get called the demon that you all of a sudden become. It even makes you wonder? really that bad truth be told you could be that horrible and that bad and that mean and that cold, but the little F****** manipulator is worse with their thinking that if they make you feel guilty enough you will accept fault that isn't even yours.

So this post here is dedicated to all those LFM(Little F****** Manipulators) out there get real and loose the sheep skin you are just fooling yourselves.

And to a friend i am cold, am calculative, am pessimistic, i always think guilty till rproven innocent, that is me, you knew this even way back then, they say you can never teach an old dog new tricks well try and apply that principle to me. I cant be like you i cant be like him, i cant be like her and i most certaily can never be like them, i can only be me, and if still bothers you sooo STAY THE F*** AWAY FROM ME.